resilience...or rather i be weak?

i breathed in and all i gasp was air
i shout to repel all the things i could not bare
i tried to listen and all i heard was myself
an empty trembling voice that echoed itself
i convinced me of happiness but all i had was shame
i valiantly scaled summits and all i had left was a name
and fading memories all the same
i shouted my lungs out until the air was through
so i breathed in again and all i gasp was still you