...i envy them too

as i envy the winds that caress your skin
i could imagine how honored and jubilent
the clinging leaves feel for the chance to shade you.

the pavements, walkways and passages
that greets your every step... i envy them too.

how lucky the walls around you
if i could echo your voice like they do,...
i could sing myself to sleep
like how lullabies do.
and yes i envy them too.

murdered

if pure beauty kills, you'd be my murderer...

and she went by gracefully...

i surrender happiness to make someone else happy.
and as im doing that, i'll be watching my own happiness...
go pass by me.


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i yielded remorse for i've made someone else happy.
and as i was doing that, i watched my own happiness...
went pass by me.

and she went by gracefully...

everything reminds me of you

even a slight thought of u in my mind

could make me happy

but a slight thought of me in ur mind

would make me even happier

reminiscing

i miss waking up in the morning,
rushing to work, running to catch my train.
i miss the long lines that kept me waiting
and often made me late. I miss the faces of tired drones
in the train forced to bare another day.
i miss that nasi lemak i often ate in the pantry
each time when i came in early. i miss hating alex for
each n every word he said. i miss feeling agitated each time
i had to stay back late. i miss the feeling
of despise when completing a rigorous task they gave.
i miss sleeping in the dark corner while
pretending that im working. and i miss the sweet
glimpse of her that i took when she came by passing.

rampant... still

a gift...

yet rampant still

rampant

these walls...
theyre caving in

maybe i am not the man i thought i was

this room...
it sucks
plain and punishing

this urge...
it sucks
fain and demeaning

in due time?
just a phase?
a mistake, a gift, a maze?

rampant...